Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Scenes of My Father's Ghost
I.
My father’s ghost lived behind my eyelids between the hours of eight pm. and eight am. from the time I was nine years old.
Once the sun rose, his ghost preferred to reside in the crawlspace at the corner of my room.
He came about in dreams, relentless in his accusations with unkind words that cut into the dark air of my imaginings.
“Why”, I asked, “did you die?”
A doctor enters, interjects:
“Well you see, he could have lived. We have the technology. But we didn’t know that then. We’ve worked with many cases like your father’s. They’re all fine now. Sorry.”
My father reappears:
“Well, I didn’t die. I faked my death.”
Then I would wake. The sun was up, my father’s ghost would slink to the far end of the room, not to be seen until the following night.
After some time, this all became less frequent. The doctors disappeared and I would not set foot in a hospital for at least seven years.
Once he came to my sister as she slept on a trampoline in my aunt’s backyard, the indian summer warm in her hair.
He extended an apology, told her everything would be fine, then dissipated once again.
II.
My father’s ghost is a blooming wildflower off the crags of a lonely mountain.
My father’s ghost slipped in through the floorboards of a creaking cottage to watch an old man dream on his deathbed.
My father’s ghost is separate from the body. In fact, it has never once been to Virginia, nor is it interested in visiting.
My father’s ghost remembers the fall , sleeps through winter, and often forgets the spring.
My father’s ghost aches in the hot months, recalling its first lonely summer after life.
My father’s ghost never inhabited a cat, but watched with moderate pleasure as my mother and sister once called to a stray where they thought he may reside.
My father’s ghost lived behind my eyelids between the hours of eight pm. and eight am. from the time I was nine years old.
Once the sun rose, his ghost preferred to reside in the crawlspace at the corner of my room.
He came about in dreams, relentless in his accusations with unkind words that cut into the dark air of my imaginings.
“Why”, I asked, “did you die?”
A doctor enters, interjects:
“Well you see, he could have lived. We have the technology. But we didn’t know that then. We’ve worked with many cases like your father’s. They’re all fine now. Sorry.”
My father reappears:
“Well, I didn’t die. I faked my death.”
Then I would wake. The sun was up, my father’s ghost would slink to the far end of the room, not to be seen until the following night.
After some time, this all became less frequent. The doctors disappeared and I would not set foot in a hospital for at least seven years.
Once he came to my sister as she slept on a trampoline in my aunt’s backyard, the indian summer warm in her hair.
He extended an apology, told her everything would be fine, then dissipated once again.
II.
My father’s ghost is a blooming wildflower off the crags of a lonely mountain.
My father’s ghost slipped in through the floorboards of a creaking cottage to watch an old man dream on his deathbed.
My father’s ghost is separate from the body. In fact, it has never once been to Virginia, nor is it interested in visiting.
My father’s ghost remembers the fall , sleeps through winter, and often forgets the spring.
My father’s ghost aches in the hot months, recalling its first lonely summer after life.
My father’s ghost never inhabited a cat, but watched with moderate pleasure as my mother and sister once called to a stray where they thought he may reside.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
seasons
the headlines read today
someone caught a fugitive line
that was something like:
"but the sea is too far to swim"
it crawled out of the slop
in a world war trench
slinked up the ditch
like an amoeba sprouted legs
to up and leave the ocean
through and through
like the development
of skeletal structure
calcification of the first bone
a ring in the marrow
the tone of dispossession
which resides between keys
somewhere before your voice
meets mine
today my tears roll on
like the back hills of pennsylvania
that time we tricked sunday
and our eyes glazed sedate
off the sounds of synthesized
billboard hits and brown gravy
a hole in our brains
bigger than a bread box
torn off the residual effects
of engineered epiphanies
and i asked in twenty questions
if it was magic
we piled stones and whispered
in the waterfall's shadow
someone caught a fugitive line
that was something like:
"but the sea is too far to swim"
it crawled out of the slop
in a world war trench
slinked up the ditch
like an amoeba sprouted legs
to up and leave the ocean
through and through
like the development
of skeletal structure
calcification of the first bone
a ring in the marrow
the tone of dispossession
which resides between keys
somewhere before your voice
meets mine
today my tears roll on
like the back hills of pennsylvania
that time we tricked sunday
and our eyes glazed sedate
off the sounds of synthesized
billboard hits and brown gravy
a hole in our brains
bigger than a bread box
torn off the residual effects
of engineered epiphanies
and i asked in twenty questions
if it was magic
we piled stones and whispered
in the waterfall's shadow
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